You are not a project that needs to improve all the time.
We are used to looking for shortcomings in ourselves: not disciplined enough, not successful enough, not calm enough, not aware enough.
Even self-development sometimes becomes a competition with yourself. You should read more, meditate longer, control your emotions better, get rid of your weaknesses faster.
But a person does not become happier just because he has learned to make even more demands of himself. Sometimes behind the desire to change is hidden the belief that your current self is not enough.
Try replacing the question "What do I need to fix myself? " On the other hand: "What now will help me live a little more carefully, calmly and honestly with myself? ".
Development does not have to be a struggle. You can be stronger without hating your weaknesses, more disciplined without constantly punishing yourself, and more aware without the requirement to always be calm.