Another scale.
I recently bought some football tickets for my son.
- How much did you buy, dad?
– 360.
"I thought it was five or ten. ".
The woman laughed.
"Dad always acts like this. "It has a different scale.
It really seems to be my way of life. I multiply everything by two, three or five.
As a child I won the regional Olympiad in literature, but that was not enough for me; I won scientific and practical conferences for high school students in social sciences, economics, law and also for some reason in human physiology and mathematics. Later he graduated from two universities at once. A year ago I finished my third candidate's thesis (I'll tell you how it happened in a separate post sometime). He brought children into the world. I almost forgot some of the stories of such multipliers. Other people remind me of them. People around me remembered the moments when I did something that seemed unusual to them.
This is probably why I don't have a classic midlife crisis. A person remembers what he wanted to be in his youth, compares his dreams with his life and discovers that much has not come true. It's different for me. I have achieved much of what I dreamed of. Thanks to its own built-in multiplier, sometimes even in multiple copies.
But at the age of 42 I feel something else especially acutely - incompleteness.
Alexander Popov said: "For graduates of the School of Humanitarian Education, milestones are harder, not easier, than for others."
Real education does not make life easier at all. This allows you to see more opportunities, notice additional processes and independently build a path where others have enough of a ready-made path.
I myself chose a complex life. Philosophy, politics, science, communication, family, Siberia, Moscow. These lines did not replace each other. They were layered. Each dream that came true gave birth to several new unfinished lines. Scale doesn't just multiply results. This doubles the imperfection.
But the fear of not finishing what I started did not arise because of projects. There are too many unfinished conversations left in my life.