This is my fifth year of sobriety and I realize you can't win. You either have alcoholism or you don't, and if you have it, it doesn't go away. You can hold on and not drink. But after a year, two years or five, or maybe tomorrow, you can lose, and all these years will turn out to be just a break. Only at the moment of death will you probably be able to declare your victory. But is this victory necessary if you have spent your whole sober life in the depression of the black and white world and fighting your demons and yourself? i don't know

This is my fifth year of sobriety and I realize you can't win. You either have alcoholism or you don't, and if you have it, it doesn't go away. You can hold on and not drink. But after a year, two years or five, or maybe tomorrow, you can lose, and all these years will turn out to be just a break. Only at the moment of death will you probably be able to declare your victory. But is this victory necessary if you have spent your whole sober life in the depression of the black and white world and fighting your demons and yourself? i don't know